I go today to do my bloodwork and labs for my surgery! I thought I would be getting my surgery date today, but I was wrong. =[ Apparently it’s my next appointment that I will get scheduled for surgery. The woman I spoke to last week said they are already booking into August, though. A longer wait than I expected, but still exciting nonetheless!

On a side note…I have to have fasting bloodwork done and my appointment is at 3:45 pm… It’s currently 10:39 am and my stomach is turning inside out. This will be funnnnn!

I don’t want another girl’s body. I want my body, but leaner, stronger, and healthier.

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It really bothers me when girls talk crap about other girls at the gym. That skinny girl wearing the spandex pants and tank top who comes to walk the treadmill maybe doesn’t have the ability to run 5 minutes. That bigger girl who you think shouldn’t be wearing a tight top finally got the confidence to do so. That girl who wears makeup maybe has no self-esteem and thats the only way she’ll go to the gym. Regardless, what others are wearing or doing at the gym shouldn’t affect why you’re there. Stop putting a label on everyone because fitness is a lifestyle that should be welcoming to everyone.

findingfitness:

Preach.

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A New Life!

The summer of 2011 lead me to a tumblr site for positive body image directed towards chubby, curvy and plus-sized girls. This blog lead me to learn to love myself. I was eventually inspired to create this weight loss blog to help keep track of my journey. Unfortunately, I was uninformed and uneducated and I was unable to get a plan together to lose the weight.

After much studying, researching and asking around for advice, I devised a new plan to work with my PCOS and lose the weight for good! This new journey was started on December 20th, 2011. However, despite all my triumphs and positive thinking and planning, I was constantly bouncing back and forth between losing weight (up to 40 pounds lost at one point! 279 pounds!) and gaining that weight again. As of June 8th, 2013 I weigh 316 pounds. Since the beginning of the year I have sought medical advice from many different doctors and specialists. Every single one told me that I was a prime candidate for weight loss surgery given my multiple failed attempts. I felt ashamed, hurt, and just plain depressed. “I want to go this journey on my own! PROVE to my rotten body that I am the one in control!” But after talking to a few friends and family members, I realized that after a LIFETIME of trying new things, following professional trainers orders and nutritional discipline….this was the only way I was going to be healthy and truly love the body I’m in.

So! Ive been to a few consults and talked to many surgeons, and sometime this year (hopefully soon!) I’ll be having Gastric Bypass weight loss surgery! It took me a while to warm up to the idea of it… because I basically looked at it as me giving up and taking “the easy way out.” I know this isn’t true now, and I’m so excited to be starting a new life after surgery! I’m still eating right and exercising, and plan on working even harder post-op in order to take care of my body and get it in the shape I’ve always wanted!

Updates!

First off, I want to apologize to all my remaining followers for my sudden and unexplained disappearance. My boyfriend moved out into his own place so there was a lot of chaos with that. Then we had some financial trouble at my house and we lost our phone and internet service. I constantly was trying to find a way to update from my phone, but it never cooperated. I’m at my dad’s now and this is really the only time I’ll be able to update until we get our internet back or my phone decides to be normal.

In the time I’ve been gone, I’ve went to the gym hardcore, got a new job, became an aunt for the first time, joined another fire department and got an interview with Auburn University College of Veterinary Medicine on March 14th. I’ve struggled with my weight (gaining back over 20 pounds despite EVERY effort I could make), and made the bold decision to seek out medical help with my weight loss journey.

On March 11th I have my first consultation appointment with the bariatric department of Georgetown Hospital in Kentucky to start my journey to a healthier me! At first I thought of myself as a failure to seek out surgical help, but after visiting with various doctors of different specialties, I’ve found out that this is really the only option for me to ever be healthy.

So, I apologize again for being gone for SO long, but life happens as I’m sure you all understand. <3 Thanks for always being here for me. Feel free to send me a message and catch up! I miss you all!